1 Year Later

It's been 1 year, 3 months since you have gone away. Troy, although I don't mention much of you to anyone as often as before, you are still in my heart every moment. Troy, I have never forgotten you all these while. You are still my best puppy....the naughty puppy that bites the furniture and shreds the newspaper....i really miss those moments. Those are one of the happiest moment I have in my life.

You are the one who really taught me what is unconditional love, and to give and not ask for anything in return.

The pain from your departure has never subsided at all. I really miss you Troy. I don't want to mention about you to anyone else because the slightest mention of you will make me very sad...so sad and painful that I feel like crying... I just want to hide this painful feeling away from others. But only you will know what is in my heart..

I still miss you the same...Troy.....forever..... T.T

Miss You so Deeply

Troy, you have been away for close to 5 months. Just want you to know that you are still alive in my heart. Everytime when I come home, I'll still have the habit of looking out for you behind the door. I can still remember the warmth that you give to my feet when you sit beside me while I am surfing the net. I can also remember the playful looks on your face when you see me getting the leash.

Troy, I have this confusing desire of wanting you to come back as my pet again, but on the other hand, I also want you to come back to this world as a human, who will never be bullied by anyone again. Anyhow, I yearn to have you by my side. I promise to give you tons more love than I ever gave you previously.

I am planning of getting another goldie, same as you, when our house is ready. I can't handle a day without you. The new doggie will take over your role in the house, but will never take over the place that you have in my heart.

Troy, I love you... I wan to hug your warm furry body again... :~(

Troy Passed Away (Age: 2yrs 6 Mths)

Troy passed away this morning. Doc broke the news to me at 9am this morning.
Went to vet to settle the bill and his funeral.

Troy.... I will never forget you. I am looking after your favourite toy now. I won't let anyone else take away your toys.... your smell is still so strong in the house.. I can still feel your warmth in the house....but i miss your furry body by my feet....i miss your nonsensical barking.... most of all...i miss hugging you....

Now that you are in rainbow bridge, you should be free from all pains and illnesses... Troy, u know how heart broken i am when I felt your body.. your body is still warm when we rub our hands through your fur.... i will never forget that feeling....

Troy..... Daddy and mummy will love your forever.... you will remain in our hearts forever...

Love you Troy.....

Troy Hospitalised

Troy is hospitalised today. He had been quite weak the whole week. I didn't notice initially because I thought Troy was just being lazy because he still walks around and eats and drinks as normal. But he has been a bit listless.

Last night, he vomited all his food out. Towards the later part of the night, Troy vomitted about 4 more times. But what came out were just brownish liquid and some white bile. This morning, when I woke up and was preparing to go to work, I saw Troy lying under the sofa, on his own vomit!! Troy is totally lethargic and doesn't even have the strength to move himself away from the vomit.

Took an urgent leave and brought Troy to Mt Pleasant at Sembawang Rd. As Troy was unable to walk at all, I had to carry him all the way from home to the lorry. The stupid lift was under upgrading, and only one lift was operating. The lift bypassed me 3 times because all of them had a malay inside. My arms went numb from carrying Troy (he is 30kg) and waiting for the lift. I squatted down, with my arm (loaded with Troy) resting on my chest. The 4th lift came. There was a Chinese woman inside. I asked whether I can join her in the lift, luckily the woman was agreeable. By the time I started the engine, I found that my arms were too numb to drive. I had to rest for about 10 minutes before driving off.

Troy vomitted again when we entered the Vet. The situation was identical to the A&E situation for human hospital in TV -- me carrying Troy in the rain, the attendants quickly came and rendered immediate medical attention. Doctor did a blood test for Troy and the result was out only after 45minutes of waiting. The Doctor informed me that Troy had a seizure just now (I was shocked because Troy never had any fit or seizure before), and found that his stomach is inflammed. Doctor also highlighted that his lips has a lot of ulcer. How can I not check his lips?! I have noticed that his lips are a bit swollen these few weeks, but I did not think much about it. The stomach problem and swollen lips are due to Troy eating something, but what I know is that mum only feeds him home cooked food (rice, boiled chicken, carrot, potato, etc) and recently added a small feeding of canned food that she bought from Cold Storage.

Doctor said that Troy has to be put on drip, and be hospitalised. I paid the bill ($400 downpayment, inclusive of blood test $220), took a last look at Troy, and left for home. It was about 1pm by the time I reached home.

I went back to the Vet with mum to visit Troy later at around 4pm when she came back from work. Troy is sleeping and snoring. Doctor said that his condition has stabilised, but still has to be kept under observation. If Troy is awake by tomorrow, and able to take in food and water from mouth, then he can be discharged. Mum patted Troy and said byebye to him before going off. I refrained myself from touching Troy cos I was afraid that I can't control my tears.

Tonight is the first time in 3 years that I don't have Troy by my side. I am still thinking of him, I am very worried of him. What is he doing now? Is he comfortable? Is he painful? Is he feeling better?

Troy please get well.

Dear God, I commit Troy's health into your hands, and that he will be healed completely. In Jesus' name, Amen..

I miss you Troy......................

Pre Chinese New Year Post

Is this Christmas or Chinese New Year?













恭喜发财！！
新年进步！！
万事如意！！











When did the ang bao get on top of my head?

Long Time No See!

Bleh!!












Hi everybody, I am back again. So long never update the blog because daddy's camera was spoilt. Since daddy just got his new camera, I'll be his model again :)

Red Hot Troy!!!

Did some grooming for Troy tonight. Accidentally cut Troy's left dew claw's quick cos he kept moving. Blood oozed out non-stop, the whole place was so bloody. Didn't take a pic of the puddle of blood from Troy cos I panicked and quickly cleaned up the puddle.

But I managed to snap the bloody paw. Sorry Troy, Daddy will give you more treat as an apology. Love you, Troy.


Troy's bloody paw!! So heartpain :(













Did a temporary bandage for him to stop the bleeding.












Here's a close up of the 'nice' bandage for Troy. It came off in less than 1 min :P

Troy's new Toy

Troy has started to mark with one of his hind legs lifted up today. Wonder how he learnt it. He hasn't seen any dog who lifted his leg to mark or pee yet. This is one of the beautiful works of mother nature. They can just pick it up themselves when it's time!! However, he still pees the girly way. Hehe... I'm still happy with this girly way of peeing cos, he won't splash all over the place when he pees at home on the newspaper! It's also a blessing that he doesn't mark at home. Phew!

Anyway, today is the first time i bring Troy downstairs after cooping him at home for 2 months! All thanks to the lift upgrading downstairs that blocked up a large portion of the pavement. With the pavement being so narrow, bringing Troy downstairs will only attract unwanted attentions -- aunties react as if they have seen a ghost, kids will try to bark at him, etc. But there are also sweet encounters with the folks around my area. Parents with young kids will point to Troy and tell their kids "See, doggie..", others just walk past and smiled at Troy and me. But with Troy being an IM, I'd rather he exercise at home than getting complaints cos just 1 complaint from anyone can get him killed! Now that they have widened the pavement, it's fun time for Troy again!!

Rewarded Troy with a new chewing bone that I bought last month. I saved this bone for rewarding him when he does something impressively nice! Now you must be wondering what he did that earnt himself that bony reward. Well, he behaved himself so sweetly well and obeyed every command that I gave -- sit, down, heel, walk slowly, run with me. This is the first time I see Troy obeying all my commands instantaneously in an outside environment!! Hurray!!

This is Troy enjoying his well-earnt reward